This Rilian does not know me. Shock widens his eyes before it burns away into something far more grim and coldly focused.

(we've a saying - to have forgotten the face of one's father)

He remembers Roland's agony when Jake's mind had been stolen from him, both before and after he woke. It's easy to see the same agony in the man before him now, carefully controlled or not, and he understands very clearly some things which have come before.

(was it something I said?)

(if you think me some soft and sheltered fool who has never known pain and loss and grief)

They were already at a slow walk, but he reins Kiseki to a stop. It's hard to bow from saddle-back, but he manages it, hand to chest.

"I have offended, and I cry your pardon." Cuthbert straightens and meets his eyes. One hand lightly brushes the gun at his hip. "And if there's aught we can do... well, it wouldn't be the first time we've dealt with such."

(you have sinned against the White - and I consign you forever to the black)